11. Dezember 2017

olympiapark before the snow










Yesterday I took a walk with my little puppy Moana at the Olympiapark in Munich.


So this week it's all about appointmens.
Doctor's appointments, vet appointment, university appointment,...

Happy when this week is over but I still feel blessed to have those appointments and being able to go to all of them.






...and suddenly it began to snow.














10. Dezember 2017

polaroid december memories





So, I love to take photos. With all kinds of machines.
The following one I took with my smartphone.
And I love to shake things, so they went all through my shake application.


I really want to write more. I love to share my thoughts.
Maybe some of you got the same ones.




Enjoy my little polaroids.







self portrait, at home, Strasskirchen, Germany.






Münchner Christkindlmarkt.




my little puppy Moana, at home, Strasskirchen, Germany.






my friend Brittney and Moana, Straubing, Germany.





christmas lights over Munich, Germany.






Mom's working desk in her beloved garden, Strasskirchen, Germany.







sunlight kissing my face, home, Strasskirchen, Germany.






a ginger beer whiskey drink my lovely aunt used to make me back in Reno. I made one for me in Munich, Germany.






blue Munich sky, Germany.














16. November 2017

it is about time

... to be the right time.
To be more productive and consistent with the things you love.
Never give up, of course, they'll tell you.


I made some shots during the last days of summer at our secret home spot where I learned to surf.



Picknicking.





Katharina and her dad.











Beautiful Katharina pretty concentrated.





Susi and Martina chatting.










Katharina.





Oli paddling. 











Oli and Andy.






Happy Kathi.





Katharina and Andy sharing.






A bird.








Oli smiling.





Oli surfing.











It's been so long since I wrote something here.





I went through some troubled water but fortunately I already know how to swim in them and survive. Thank you universe for letting me survive.
I went to a psychosomatic clinic for 5 weeks.
I have to find some ambulatory care after that now.
I got to get back to my studies and make it to the Bachelor Exams.

I got myself my very own dog I was longing for through all my childhood as long as I can think.
I named her 'Moana' after the Disney movie where she is a hero. She is my hero, my little dog.

I fell in love again.






11. September 2017

rise up






I wrote this a couple of weeks ago (it's all better now):




Hello there, dear few readers.
It has been such a long time since I wrote something.
I have been struggling for a while. I kept asking myself the last weeks and month if I should right about it or rather not and shut up like society would prefer. It is not pleasant or comfortable to talk about it like at a party, with friends at a café or even with your own family.
Better not talk about it. It's all gonna be okay. It's just something you made up. You made it up in your head so you can make it go away by yourself.
No your can't make it go away that easily: Depression.
I was doing an internship last summer at a magazine. Fortunately my last major depressive episode - how the doctors call it and as it is written on the leaflet of the antidepressants i was taking back then - went away not even a month before the internship started. Lucky me.
So after this internship I went on a trip to Costa Rica and the United States and suddenly it started again. This feeling of numbness and the inability to be fully happy without fear.
I was in paradise surrounded by the ocean, nature, lovely people, surfing and good food and right there it hit me again. I knew it was about time to go home and I knew from the 4 times I had depression before of the feeling of it as it came up.
Scarred of being around people, always tired, anxious about even leaving the house. Not able of having a casual conversation, even with friends or family. Always this nervous feeling in my stomach, ever since I open my eyes in the morning. Having confusing dreams. Making decisions is the worst in those episodes.
And still I am still trying to act calm.



I keep on posting from now on a lot more. Stay tuned! Pah!


















29. Januar 2017

surf & harmony







January 2017
Santa Teresa, Costa Rica




















































































The peace that comes with energies are in harmony,
relationships are in balance. 



- Author unknown: a quote I found ritten on a wall on my day trip to Montezuma today.